dress: silence & noise, pleat scarf: alpha60, heels: buffalo (via modcloth), hole hair-clip: ebay

silliest outfit of the day

What am I even doing?! Why am I taking photos of a totally boring outfit while standing around in my kitchen?! I'm wearing flip flops, my shirt cost $5, why am I showing you guys this?!


So I'll tell you a secret - I actually just wanted an excuse to post this video:

fat body (in)visible from Margitte Kristjansson on Vimeo.

Made by Margitte and starring Keena and my girl Jessica it is so well made and really moving (when Keena was talking about being at the airport I cried) and definitely worth watching.

While on the subject of Size Acceptance etc I recently read this post from the amazing Leah over at thefullnilson.com where she talks about “Contextual Fatness”. This really struck a chord with me because I am also at a size where I am not limited to only shopping at plus-sized stores. I own/wear/fit into clothes ranging between a large size 12 and a small size 20, I often can go into a straight sized store and buy clothing from a much wider selection and I realise that this is a privilege that a lot of larger women don't have. I know I am not the fattest girl in the world. But, like Leah says, in the social circles I am in, at school, at jobs, I have generally been the fattest woman in the room and it is definitely something I notice, especially in social situations, and it is definitely an "othering" experience every time I notice it. Expressions like "in-betweenie" just feel patronising to me because it makes me feel like my experiences as a fat woman are somehow less important than those of women who are bigger than me. I wish that there wasn't so much talking about "how fat is fat" and how Crystal Renn is a traitor for losing weight etc etc. For something that is supposed to be a really positive thing it seems to breed a lot of negativity and that really sucks.

On a less serious note - remember my beautiful Jeffrey Campbell Foxy Leopard Platforms? These ones:

Well after wearing them twice and getting blisters on the balls of my feet from them moving around too much, I've had to admit that size 8 is too big for me and so I am selling them here! I know a lot of you guys liked them so here's your chance to have them. I'm only doing shipping within Australia because I can't be bothered with international shipping (unless somebody wants to make me a ridiculous offer I can't refuse) so Aussies, go bid!

fate.

I've never been the sort of person who believes in fate or the one or "everything happens for a reason" but recently something has started to change my mind. You might remember these shoes from my August Wishlist. They were on Nasty Gal for $145 but with shipping and the currency exchange I was looking at paying about $250 and I just couldn't justify the cost.

A few weeks later I signed up to ebay after a self-imposed six year ban due to a little bit of an ebay addiction. The first shoes I saw were leopard platforms, not as pretty as the Jeffrey Campbell ones but they were cute and in my size and going for about $50. I bid, I won and I asked the seller if it was okay for me to pay them a few days later. When the day I was going to pay came around suddenly the seller was no longer a registered ebay user and then some things started to add up - the fact that they had asked me to deposit the money into their bank account instead of paypal, the fact that they were selling some other things using only stock photos - basically it become pretty clear that they were a scammer so I was lucky I hadn't paid but I was really sad I wasn't going to get my dream shoes.

About a week after that I was sadly browsing ebay when I saw my dream shoes! Jeffrey Campbell leopard platforms in my size and at a reasonable price. I got some advice from ebay experts (don't bid until the last 30 seconds), I set alarms on my phone to remind me and everything came together perfectly and I won. A few days later they were delivered to my door and we have been living happily ever since.

I still don't believe in fate or "the one" when it comes to dudes, but with shoes... well I'm starting to think it's a different story.

platforms: jeffrey campbell (via ebay), dress: silence & noise